What Should I Say

I have tried several times to write this blog entry, but each time God says, “No.” As a result I sit here with a blank page in front of me. I start for the third time and Zuhua comes into my room and we talk. I ask her about next year and learn that she will be retiring early in the year and may not be here to provide meals for me and watch over me if I get sick. This information comes to me at the same time that I have been asked to stay longer next year. Without someone like Zuhua at my side, my work in China will probably come to an end. As I sit here and think about this I am not sure what to do. I wonder what God’s plans for me are.